jawbreakers

taking walks in sand
and on stars
now gone but not lost
still dreaming while awake
and keeping eyes
shut
to secure insanity
never letting go
of the fear
insanity
and of course you in so many ways
wondering how life was lost
and how you began
what was that color we spoke of
such as flowers
and simultaneously tieing access shoelaces
intertwined in a giant knot formed into a lucky charm
such as myself as you trust me
i keep these secrets in my mind
and with others
i apologize just not to myself
if only we could pretend
that i was someone else
and we could forget it all
i hope life could be that easy
forgetting who we all
were just seeing the BIGGER picture
understanding that we are not the only ones
we have to think of ourselves
as much as others
but that doesn't leave much time does it
it is horrid that i think
this way of illogical
butterflies and pixies tails (or tales)
in my mind
sleeping and seeing
the truth at the same time
for once.