love is vengance, its never free

dead.

nothing has happened but
yet,
every thing has
well changed.

with no purpose,
what so ever.
no meaning and
of course
no cause.

i am falling
like never before
more
than i ever have
before
but there is no way
to prevent this
fatal disease
if i am not even sure
what the symptoms are
let alone the problem is.
so i keep losing it.
it happens to often these days
i am losing all inspiration
and and well
everything
that has ever met anything to me
but
that means even less
to you
than it does to me.
i have never felt this before

death is inside of me.
it is a burning rage
that cant
find a way out
so it will eat its way out
killing me in the process
never quick
but slow and decreasing,
increasingly.
i guess thats how we learn
i guess thats how we strive.
and yet i wonder.
i wonder what exactly
it is
that pushes people away from me.
it hurts
it kills
it repels
it destroys
it falls apart
untill the point
where i refuse to ever fully re-awake.

ME