spit and shine

"good morning star-shine. the world says hello."
and the children keep crying
tear comes to tear
toxic waste
and our love in the
air
the water
and stepped on by our shoes
keep on walking and you will find the system
changing appearences
and still sitting on ourselves
sit and nothing will ever be done
at least from what i see
unless of course
we sit to make a stand
what a odd pefrence.
ultimate poser i must say
changes apperance for the liking of others
also myself if i feel to bright i change into a dark colored shirt
if weaaring to many clothes i go naked
no not really that is frowned upon in america
along wiht cananbalism
"everything is edible here, even me".
"he wears a heart safty pinned to his back pack his back pack is all that he knows"
wow how randomn and still in sync
in my mind that is
emma and joe
and joe and emma
and yet i long for one maybe two
one far another farther
and one just a emotional liking nice to be friends
o well.

AHA.. the answer

i can say something or quietly walk off stage.
take a real look or close your eyes afraid of the truth.
but i help fix it.
fix you.
or at least i try.
if you want help.

teenage overdose... or was it angst?

FUCK
why dont you just go take some more pills.
next time we'll use your toothbrush not mine.

theories from the underground

pour my heart out one day at a time..
only recently
i found out what it was like to have one.
to worry,
to have real feelings,
about friends, family, myself but it all is so confusing.
like finding the right card in a shuffled deck.
i am no magiacian
i cant fix the world myself.
but i sure as hell can try
and that is what i will do.
love for children and fear of death..
not really i am more than ready for such a thing
more less worried about the impact on myself rather than others..
haha how concided.
phone calls: GRAND CENTRAL STATION
and yet all i really want is
a job,
a life,
and some food i can call my own.
freedom..
break away from the leash, run away from the world and hide under a rock..
that will surely never happen because life is so well worth doing and not woth the waiting.
in my eyes that is
i am not all that sure about you
or how you look at me
although secretly i wish i did know
and i wish you knew how i felt
i will keep it hidden for a good 20 some years.
tipsy turvy life style not knowing which way to go..
maybe we all should end thid nonsense
and understand that in reality life could all somewhat be pleasing you know?
there is no reaon for depression really.
only chemical imbalances
cause things and fairys will fix them.
unless they come to late and BANG your dead.
fall of a building
whoops i saw it on tv..
haha poor people and ther pathetic excuses...
i really wish the dark carnival could come pick me up
like people say all six joker cards layed out and i am waiting....
it needs to hurry so many thoughts about death
and i know i will never actually do it..
tried drowning but never really satisfied me..
constant lieing has a big impact i think..
should probably stop that some time down the road..
do things with my life
i know i can but i dont have the drive..
only about 35% of the time do i get that drive
and what a wonnderful drive that is..
hormones are horrible likeing and haitng to many people at once..
one day i will find what i need to find untill then i will sit idol..
unless of course i need to urinate.

music and movies...also a side affect of a hangover

my head hurts
the beat is kicking harder
not only in my mind
but in general quite great..
BORAT in my background
and GIR in my heart.
lets sleep for 23 minutes
and awake for great sucess
of which this was not.

careful not to drip sauce down your shirt.

it is only anxiety
i keep holding on tho the string
dragged down the line of applicants
waiting for my turn
to make a statmnent of complains
about this world we call home.
we all shit on the place with so much
carbon and meat eating.
do you not feel bad?
who knows the green plan does! haha.
chicken and a giant steak please as rare as can be.
how disgusting why dont you just pour bleach down your throat?
weed..
well it is better than ciggarettes
and is organic soooo
that is a plus also for a short while
it makes you feel somewhat good
and
can clear out your lungs unlike ciggarettes...
goodthing i smoke newports more often.
poor thing die early.
dowsing,
tarrot,
numerology,
astrology,
spaggetti.
hmm all wonderful things that change your life.
so do you.

fuck.shit.hell.yea.

well if all things were perfect
my sister would eat less ice cream and more carrots
boosting her health and well
i told every one that life is more than just a drag
and i love it either that more less
what is she saying to me
she sounds like the peanuts parent
and i just used tool lyrics to an extent.
how erotic.
my shoulder itches
and dowsing is pretty much amazing and well worth it in life.
find my missing retainer
not mine my cousin
who happens to be quite rad
but i fell asleep earlier
and the whole caffiene addiction
is still thered and beating me up
is what she says so
what
huh
why did you pretend to listen
maybe one day i will who knows
i only hear a few grasps like
my X
and her
and a girl named lauren
i think maybe somone else who knows.
newports
and coffee
and a good book what a perfect combination especially if you add the right amount of angst.